Saturday, October 24, 2015

Delicious Autumn... My Very Soul Is Wedded To It!

"Is not this a true autumn day? Just the still melancholy that I love... that makes life and nature harmonise. The birds are consulting about their migrations, the trees are putting on the hectic or the pallid hues of decay, and begin to strew the ground, that one's very footsteps may not disturb the repose of earth and air, while they give us a scent that is a perfect anodyne to the restless spirit. Delicious autumn! My very sould is wedded to it, and if I were a bor I would fly about the earth seeking the successive autumns."

~George Eliot
Letter To Miss Eliot
October 1st, 1841

Yesterday was Family Day. A special day Alan and I chose, while we were on our honeymoon, that we thought would be a good day for us to celebrate autumn with the children we might be blessed with one day. We were married on October 13th, and while we vacationing and dreaming about the family we would start, we figured that little ones might like to also have a special day in October that would be set aside to celebrate us as a family. We chose October 23rd. That is also the day that we choose our official pumpkins for the season. Half Moon Bay is our traditional destination for all things gourd, and to relax and just share our love. Well, we were never blessed with children, so we opted to adopt 3 little fuzzy kitties, but since kitties don't really like long car rides to pumpkin patches, we leave them at home, and spend the day together, just he and I. Oh don't worry, we always bring them each cat a pumpkin of their very own, and you'll see their's soon. But Family Day is still about the family we became. Alan and I are happy with how things turned out. We have the love, and the family we were meant to have, and life is really good. We are a mommy, daddy and three fuzzy little boys.

Because of how the past 6 months have gone, I really needed Family Day this year more than most years! My mind and focus has been scattered in 30 different directions. My heart has been broken. My patience tested. But my values have been confirmed in my heart and mind. I am happy about that, and I am ready to move forward, but the sadness taps on my consciousness daily. Still, there are days like Family Day, when the autumn air, and the colors... all the autumn colors... and smells make me smile and lift my spirits so much that all the sadness floats away. Sometimes so fast I don't even know I am in the middle of a giggle until I am doubled over with joy! The sounds, the sights, the sheer romance of autumn heals me. It always has. I hope it always will. And when you add in the love of Alan and my fuzzy little boys, I know it will all be okay. It will all work out. I just have let it.

I just have to remember to trust in love
 and autumn
 and I will be okay.

Sights From Family Day
October 23rd 2015

Different Kinds Of Pumpkins And Delicious Organically Grown Vegetables And Flowers From Half Moon Bay, Ca!

Leaf Of The Day
October 24th 2015
Mood: Happy

~Me :)

Friday, October 23, 2015

If The Broom Fits...

"If The Broom Fits... Fly It!"


Isn't she pretty? Yeah, I thought so too! Ha Ha. Last year I began a new tradition on my blog, I decided it would be fun to create some vintage styled Halloween greetings! I have a love for all things vintage, and often find myself gravitating towards things from around the 1930's, 40's and 50's. And I am never more inspired than around the holidays and Halloween particular! So, while I am out and about photographing holiday themed antiques and fun little gifts, I try to think about how they would look as a cool greeting card. In that Halloween is my favorite holiday, I decided to start here each holiday holiday season. Here is the first greeting card I have designed for this season, I think there will be a couple more between now and Halloween. We'll see!

Stay Tuned!

Leaf Of The Day
October 23rd 2015

Mood: Happy/Creative

~Me :)

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Ask Me Next Autumn...

"It was October again... a glorious October, all red and gold, with mellow morning when the valleys were filled with delicate mists as if the spirit of autumn had poured them in for the sun to drain...
 amethyst, pearl. silver, rose, and smoke-blue. 
The dews were so heavy that the fields glistened like cloth of silver and there were such heaps of rustling leaves in the hollows of many-stemmed woods to run through."

~E. L. Montgomery
Anne Of Green Gables

I am feeling better. Little by little I am letting go of the pain, and moving forward. The leaves help. There is something... I don't know... just something about all those colors, gently swaying back and forth, that makes me heart smile! When your heart smiles, it's difficult to dwell on the things that hurt you. The things that break your heart and your spirit. I am still mulling some legal options, but right now I am content to let our vacation be all about the healing from the nonsense of this past summer. Summer has always been a cruel, treacherous season, and this last one did nothing to prove me wrong. But autumn is here now, wrapping me in a soft warm blanket, and so I am content to let it, and in doing so, I am finding the forgiveness for what's been done. Yeah, I guess you could say I am moving on. Moving on, and moving forward. Will I, will we, heal completely? Ask me next autumn.

Leaf Of The Day
October 22nd 2015


~Me :)

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

A Change Of Direction

"Whether you take the doughnut hole as a blank space or as an entity unto itself is purely metaphysical question and does not affect the taste of the doughnut one bit."

~Haruki Murakami
A Wild Sheep Chase

Okay, so one night of NO sleep leads to a temporary postponement of our trip to Plumas. The leaf peeping is now rescheduled for this coming Sunday, October 24th! But all was not lost yesterday because we drove to Apple Hill instead. And our first stop, of course, was Rainbow Orchards for some fresh, hot, Apple Cider Doughnuts! It's just not really fall without them! Next we took a leasurly drive up the hill into South Lake Tahoe! It was cold, and dark... the perfect autumn day for enjoying the moodiness of autumn! The air was so cold and so clean, but the lake nearly broke my heart! 

There was no snow on the hills, and you could tell the lake had dropped. It wasn't it's usual pristine loveliness, instead it seemed like it was feeling the age of the year, just like I have been. The stress of the long, hot dry summer was showing. This drought is devastating! I hope the experts are right about the prediction of the coming El Nino. We need some rain to brighten our spirit and bring the color back to our trees, and our cheeks. Life has to take an upturn soon... right? I didn't see a single colorful tree along HWY 50! It nearly made me cry.

Let's just hope the coming El Nino won't do too much damage, as it rights the wrongs caused by the drought! God, when it rains... it pours!

 Leaf Of The Day
October 21st 2015
Mood: Okay

~Me :)

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Road Trip 2015... Chapter One: Plumas!

"Every dreamer knows that it is entirely possible to be homesick for a place you've never been to, perhaps more homesick than for familiar ground."

~Judith Thurman

And finally we come to the point in our vacation adventure for 2015 where we travel. Today, Alan and I are off to Plumas County to do some leaf peeping, and barn quilt hopping! It's kind of a funny coincidence but when we moved to Stockton, it put us just about 3 hours or so away from most of the places we love in California! Pacific Grove and Carmel, Marin County Coast, and Plumas in the Sierra! That's a happy little bit of good fortune I think, and to make it all the nicer the leaves are just about at their deepest color for the season! I am hoping to give the cameras a workout, and myself as well! I think I am looking forward to the ride with Alan as much as the leaves themselves! Spending 12 straight hours in a car is a true test of a friendship... and a marriage... and we always have the best time on these road trips! 

 Chapter One: Plumas! 

A Look Back At Previous Visits To Plumas
2010 & 2012

Leaf Of The Day
October 20th 2015
Mood: Happy

~Me :)

Monday, October 19, 2015

New House, New Rose

"I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yester-years are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, 
leave it the fastest way you can. 
Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because it is dead. Passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud,
formidable from a distance."

~Beryl Markham
West With The Night

I am still holding onto the past. I always do that when a relationship comes to and end. Love relationships in particular, and I really loved my cottage in Berkeley. I really loved Berkeley, and the whole East Bay really. But my cottage was my safe place, and it meant a lot to me, especially in times when I really didn't feel very safe about things. But lets face it, that relationship is over now, and there is no hope of reviving it. Once you break up with property, there is usually no going back. 

I wish I could change. Not get so attached to things that don't breathe, or think on their own. But the simple truth is, I have been that way my whole life. I am not materialistic, but I tend to believe places and objects take on auras and their own kind of personas. I have formed the strangest attachments to objects over my life. Objects I mourn the loss of, as if they are living breathing people.

And that's how I feel about the cottage. It kept me safe for 14 years. It was my refuge. It was small, and at times crowded, and truth is had I not been pushed out of it, I would have probably died there. LOL. So instead I will die elsewhere, probably where I am now. A perfectly lovely home, with lots of room, and a fun little aura/personality that needs a little fixing here and there, but otherwise is a very nice place to call home. The problem is that it is so far away from all that is dear and familiar to me. All the things that I grew to love in the Bay Area, so I feel myself pushing the house away. Deliberately not wanting to fall in love with it the way I loved the cottage.

I know, I know... get used to it, because the change happened, so accept it and move on. Right. I will get right on that! LOL. There are things that I am sure will help me in that quest. One thing being the lovely roses that came with the property. While they aren't as many as I had planted in the rose garden I created at the cottage, they are lovely all the same. And one of the roses just happens to be a Blushing Apricot rose, which was one of my very favorite to grow. 

It is lovely, and has a beautiful form, not to mention a sweet/spicy scent that is absolutely captivating! I am going to enjoy nurturing this rose along, and planting a few more rose varieties next spring! The existing roses in the new garden are all in magnificent shape, so I will cinnamon the yard, and get things off to a happy start. It will just take some time. And I know time is the great healer. I am just sad right now, but as the house and I get acquainted, the sadness will pass. I know it will.
 The roses will help. So will the autumn.

Leaf Of The Day

October 19th 2015
Mood: Happy

~Me :)

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Pizzelle Pizzelle

"Don't be satisfied with stories, 
of how things have gone with others.
 Unfold your own myth."

The Essential Rumi

Sometimes I wonder where I would be right now, had it not been for my deep need to be creative, and Alan's unwavering support in my artistic adventures. He brought me back from the brink once, just by being a constant source of love, friendship and support. I suppose that's why October means so much to me, it's my chance to really take care of him. See to what he needs, and plan our little road adventures, so he can rest from all the work he does all year long. Work at his actual place of employment, and work as in listening to the crazy that is me. LOL.

Yesterday we had a fun little culinary adventure. We made Pizzelles. Pizzelles, if you haven't already heard of them, are a cute, delicious little Italian waffle type cookie. They are also said to be the first cookie ever made! They can be made the traditional way, or customized depending on the flavor of extract you choose. Yesterday we made them with several different kinds of extracts. Coffee, Root Beer, and Anise. Some were formed into cannoli shells, which we are going to fill with something yummy, and some were left flat to be made into ice cream sandwiches!

I purchased a fun little pizzelle maker from Cuisinart, through, to make the pizzelles, and I highly recommend it! It makes two cookies at a time, and comes with a dowel for rolling the cookies into cannoli shells. I traded off making one flat cookie and one cannoli shell each bake. At 60 calories per cookie, it's a fun little indulgence that you make at your desk if you want to, because you can make the batter/dough up ahead of time, and bake when you feel like it!

Life is just pretty damn good sometimes!

 Leaf Of The Day
October 18th 2015

Mood: Happy

~Me :)