Thursday, December 28, 2006

Rainy Days And Mondays

"True goodbyes are the ones never said or explained."

-Unknown

New Year's Day is on a Monday this year. Stupid New Year's Day! Yes, that's right, I said Stupid New Year's Day! As the holiday season leaves for one more year, and as I look back, I had a pretty good time. There were a lot of things to be truly thankful for, and I am, but there are one or two things that are hurting me at the moment, and while I don't usually like to share the things that haunt me here on Ellipsis, I do know when it it's better for me to just be honest and say... Stupid New Year's Day!

So, while I know I will be starting the new year with a degree of sadness, I know that in time I will think back fondly on those I miss and probably just smile. My friend says to me, "we will both move on, we will be ok. It's a new start for us. At least that is what I am told." Tee Hee. To which I say to my friend, "You're not the boss of me." Tee Hee. I know people come and go, it's never really easy, for anyone, but there it is. People don't always leave your life because they want to. Change happens. Seasons. Dates on a calendar. Minutes. Hours. Years that go by in a blink. And like the sun in November... especially the sun in November... the light is never really the same.

Rainy Days & Mondays
The Carpenters

Talkin' to myself and feeling old
Sometimes I like to quit
Nothin' ever seems to fit
Hangin' around, nothing to do but frown
Rainy Days and Mondays always get me down

What I've got they used to call the blues
Nothin' is really wrong
Feelin' like I don't belong
Walkin' around, some kind of lonely clown
Rainy Days and Mondays always get me down

Funny but it seems I always wind up here with you
Nice to know somebody loves me
Funny but it seems that it's the only thing to do
Run and find the one who loves me

What I feel is come and gone before
No need to talk it out
We know what it's all about
Hangin' around, nothin' to do but frown
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

Funny but it seems that's it's the only thing to do
Run and find the one who loves me

Who loves me...

Hangin' around, nothin' to do but frown
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down.

-OndineMonet
"On A Late December Day In 2006"
Berkeley, California
December 26th, 2006
Afternoon

1 comment:

GLendaRs said...

I used to LOVE that song ... because sometimes I can wear grief like an old flannel shirt, like it's a container of butter pecan ice cream, like it's a friend. I don't know what it is you've lost but no matter, it is always painful to lose something that really matters to us.

Changes do come and I am living in one that I may have in some fashion brought on myself, it's never been a welcome change and it's going on four years now .... the thing that brought it on in the first place left about 7 years ago. I'm hoping that like the first part of it, the remaining fallout will dissapate by the end of the year .. well, I had hoped it would be this year but it's not looking too good.

I have always lived by faith and my faith over this is waining because the burden seems to continue to deepen and so I can somewhat grasp your dilemma today. Albeit, not having any insight into the reasons why you don't want the year to end.

Maybe the coming year will bring you more joy than you can stand. NOW THAT would be my wish for you!!