Monday, December 19, 2016

Autumn Is Practical Magic

"The smell of burning firewood and the molding of organic, earthy substances reminded her of jumping wildly into the enormous leaf piles of autumns pas and she suddenly wished that it was appropiate for someone her age to do such a thing."

~Abby Slovin
Letters In Cardboard Boxes

Autumn Is Practical Magic!
 Autumn is slipping away, and piece of me always dies with it. While I always feel emotional about autumn passing away, this year carries a deeper sadness than most years, because this has been a very emotional three months! The leftover emotions of 2015, settling into owning a home and all that goes with that. The election. The unbelieveable fear and pain the election's aftermath left me with. The cancer scare. 

But there were also some incredible moments of joy as well! The time spend with Alan on this vacation was absolutely perfect! We had a blast! The awe of seeing Yosemite for the first time! Finding out that our house has gained enough equity, that we can finally get our bills under control, and breath a little easier, maybe even begin some real renovations! All helped to balance my feelings!

It was a bittersweet autumn!
Like the dark leaves and the vibrant colorfull ones, it all blended together in a beautiful fateful tapestry.
Autumn is a whole life, lived in just three months.
And I will be lonely for it, until it is rebirth in September!

Until then...

"Squeeze your eyes closed, as tight as you can,
 and think of all your favorite autumns, crisp and perfect,
 all bound up together like a stack of cards.
 That is what it is like, the awful, wonderful brightness of fairy colors. Try to smell the hard, pale wood,
 sending up sharp, green smoke into the afternoon.
 To feel the mellow, golden sun on your skin, more gentle and cozier and more golden that even the light
 of your favorite reading nook at the close of the day."

 ~Catherynne M. Valente
The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland
In A Ship Of Her Own Making

Leaf Of The Day
December 19th, 2016

Mood: Quiet

~Me :)



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